I've been preparing myself to the day I finally write about the things that have changed from this blog, from me, from my life. After "celebrating" 5 years of blogging last August 4th, I knew that it's time to do so. This might make more sense to my loyal readers who's been following me from the first time I blogged under Sunflares Plethora, my old blog title. I used to write long, thoughtful posts about life and the melancholic side of it. I used to fill my blog with more inspirational posts instead of advertorial ones. I also used to share more productive topics instead of flooding the page with my own outfit pictures. Now when I look at this blog, there's this slight unfamiliar feeling - sometimes it looks like someone else's blog. I realised that unfamiliarity is one of the side-effect of change. I've changed.
Question : Why do I change?
The answer can be long, but I'd keep it simple - I have to change. There are many opportunities related to blogging career that come along my way during these 5 years, and honestly I wasn't very careful on choosing which one I want to try. I made a good mistake when I went with the new-fashion-blogging-trend flow after I decided to blog full-time and move to the capital. I took some jobs that I hate, some projects that were harder to finish than I thought, some not-so-useful collaborations. I learn how to monetize my blog in easy and hard way, and knowing the disadvantages of both. The only way I can grow is by letting myself to change - either for shorter term or longer period of time. And as a person who hates (very, deeply, religiously hates) changes, there were nothing easy about it. I knew I let many readers down and losing potential real-life connections with them. I also knew that I failed myself by focusing on how to make a living from something I like, but end up pushing myself to do many things I don't enjoy by heart. I knew that for quite a long while, but decided to hold the disappointment because I got to finish my process. And being said that, I have to say, I had my lessons.